Back again!

Even though it's been a whole month, I'm happy to say that I'm back, blogging again. Since my last post, I was traveling quite a bit for residency interviews, so that's my excuse! I'm almost done, though (just one left in Kansas City, but that's not until two weeks from now), and I've been enjoying the end of my vacation time before going back to a routine in January.

I guess the other reason that I've been slow to return to my blog is that I've been trying to think about what I want to write and how I want to write it. There are a lot of things that I want to talk about, but I'm not sure how much I should share and I'm not sure it's going to be easy. Over the past week, I've worked up some courage though, and I think I'm ready.

So here goes...

Let's talk about why I'm relieved that 2010 is almost over. I will always remember this year as the year that Joe and I had our first pregnancy and our miscarriage. Six months ago, I wasn't sure how I was going to make it until 2011 or even the next day, but I did it. This experience has been so uniquely painful, but it's also helped me to grow in ways that I hadn't even realized I needed to grow.

That isn't to say that the experience (or the growth) is over, but I do feel like I've reached a place now where I can reflect. I'm also ready to find some closure and hopefully start a new chapter. So that's where this blog comes in. I've decided to talk about my experience, and I plan to start from the beginning.

I know a lot of people are going to wonder why I'm stirring up these memories and emotions. I just want to say that this has been one of my concerns too (and Joe's as well), but I think that if just one person going through a similar loss comes across this blog and benefits from it, then it will have been worth it. I hope that none of your friends or family will ever be affected by a miscarriage, but if you happen to find out about someone, please tell them about the posts that are to follow.

If you do plan to read along as I write about the past year, I am so grateful, and I'll try to keep it positive so you don't feel like you've been hit with a ton of bricks every time you read. I'm not sure how long it will take to get through it, but I'll try to write something at least weekly (I know, I know, I said that last time, but this time I mean it).

And if I don't post before Friday, have a Happy New Year!

(What I'm listening to right now...)
 Norah Jones The Fall